Rushing/Worrying

so I was in a hurry all day...I think that feeling rushed is stressful in itself...even if there aren't dire consequences for being late/too slow.

I have made huge strides in SLOWING DOWN...that was one of the first things I had to learn how to do in recovery...SLOW DOWN and RELAX...but today? it was out the window.

Many reasons for that....I take on more than I can handle...I put things off til the last minute...and ...like with traffic, sometimes, life just throws you a curve-ball.

Gambling did that for me...it slowed me down....I would rush rush rush...rush to get everyone off...rush to get myself ready...rush to get there...then sit on that stool....and relax...that was it...I slowed down...and relaxed (right up until the gut started twisting....about the money...or responsibilities I was neglecting..or WHATEVER.....but more often than not...the gut started twisting).

Anyway....

I picked up my son today and asked what happened when he got to school...'no big deal' he said 'about 40 kids were late'.....I told him that I had a hard time shaking that off this morning...it ruined much of my day...

He looked at me like I had two heads...and said 'no wonder you have so many problems....you worry about all of YOUR stuff...and you worry about MY stuff too!' (ummm...he has a brother..and a father as well)...

wow

he's right....

only worry about 'my own stuff'

I'll put that on my list.

xo